the healing power of toys

i had a very productive day today, after having decided i wanted a real 'in the zone' day of writing code. it's so much more fun to program when as soon as i have gotten to an obstacle, i just sit back and think "i can figure this out" instead of my old way of going "oh d&(*£%, just work" (and that's the clean version!). so after a very satisfying day of that, i hopped in the car and thought "okay what shall i have now?" i settled on just having a lovely evening with the family. laughs and hugs would be a nice end to the day.

my former neighbour (but still good friend) 's children were over at my house with my daughter. she came shortly after i arrived and i thought it would be nicer to have a cuppa with her than to immediately start the dinner. so we had a nice chat, exchanging thoughts on her Wayne Dyer readings and my 'The Secret' listenings. it was so nice that i forgot it was violin lesson day. so when the teacher arrived and there wasn't even a hint of dinner cooked, i fell into old habits. racing around, trying to keep the 2 year old from interrupting the lesson AND cooking the dinner.

i got my loud "STOP!" via a good dose of hot beef drippings splashed on my right hand.
several of my inner voices now arrive :
the mom: "get the boy out of the way!"
the first-aider: "run that hand under cold water! stat!"
the software engineer : "isn't there a program to prevent that in future?!"
the musician : "music will soothe the pain away!"

luckily, the first-aider in me won and there i was, running soothing cold water over the hand. i was standing there realizing that if i'd have just not been 'chasing time' as The Secret cds suggest, it wouldn't have happened, but also that it doesn't necessarily mean that i'm going to have a burn. i also know i'm probably not vibrating the right level to prevent the burn, so
i turn of the water and do some reiki on my hand. i went in, sat down on the couch to do the reiki, and probably got as much out of the calmness as i did from the reiki.

the kids decided this was love time. when is it not 'love time' really? i mean honestly? so as i'm sitting there being calm, not caring about the dinner that is almost certainly burning, doing reiki on my hand, i feel hugs and stuffed animals. i say "thank you" to both my children who are staring at me with that "it's okay we'll take care of you" look. a minute later, i'm being slowly covered with stuffed animal after stuffed animal by my daughter, the 8 year old. not wanting to be left out, my son, aged two, puts cars on me. by the end of it, i have 7 stuffed animals on top of my arms, and 15 hot wheels cars. they were standing there admiring their handiwork until i burst out laughing which has a real domino effect as you can imagine.

the rest of the evening was riddled with laughs and hugs, which is just what i was hoping for.

and the hand? totally fine. thank you!

oh i almost forgot : here's something for the 'be careful how you do the exercises' file.

i got Michael Losier's Law of Attraction book at the weekend. it is a fantastic resource in that he walks you through exercises to apply LOA. i also went to his website to get a 'clarity through contrast' worksheet. i did it at a work break. he suggests writing about 50 things on the contrast side (the list of things you don't like). i got about 20, and had that list sitting there next to me when an idea for my code popped in my head. the list continued to sit there, all 20 negatives i'd thought of, right next to me on the desk for probably an hour. and then i get a confrontational email from the person i'm making the list about. i thought "hmm. . .i'm not going to answer that until after i finish this worksheet!" so not only did i quickly fill in the clarity side of the worksheet, i quickly just did a list of positive aspects about him, like Abraham suggests.

note to self : in future, finish the exercise, before you get an email from someone you may or may not be trying to change your thoughts about!!!!

i also signed up for Michael's newsletter, which included a link in it to a recording he'd done with some listeners. the one i listened to today focused on our use of "don't, not and no". this will really highlight the negative talk around you. it's made me see lunch in a completely different light. mostly it's fine because we talk and laugh about the ridiculous things our kids do. but then at some point, something bothers someone, and i have to sit there and think of something positive while they go off on one of their "and then they did this can you believe that!?" and then i get weird looks, because i have a dreamy look on my face while they've been talking about the rude clerk at the shop, but i've been thinking about the cute little puppies at the b&b i stayed at in edinburgh.

okay i have to go now, my husband has spotted another spider and is looking at my law of attraction library as possible smashing tools. i need to re-direct him to his american studies books!