making lemonade from lemons

FIRST OF ALL : note to self - if you're going to write a blog and potentially point out the changes of loved ones, you really should make sure the loved one in question doesn't all-of-a-sudden show up and look at the laptop you're typing it on. yes yes yes it all happened very fast. but it really happened. if i didn't have appreciation-journalling to do before, i have now!!!

okay, to continue on. i feel amazing. i can tell i'm going somewhere with all this new-found perspective, because i totally handled today differently than i would have previously.

yesterday, my lovely girl wakes up with a little bit of pink in her eye. i don't think it's the look she was going for. she's very conscious of her looks, as they tend to be at ....em every age i guess, but acutely so now that she's 8. i didn't point it out to her, but offered sympathy when she said her eye hurt. not much i could do on a sunday but sympathize and distract. she went to play with a friend. in hindsight, if i'd put two and two together, i'd have realized that a pink eye means "pinkeye". WHOOPS! well, they all pass these things around. not the end of the world, probably.

she came home and it was gone. yay! maybe not pinkeye!

she woke up this morning. OH YES - it's pinkeye in the other eye.

and here's how i handled it differently. the old me would have pissed and moaned about having to take a day off work when i only had a few days to last me to april, and would have worried about what the people at work would think.

today's me went "meh! so we'll stay home today. i'll take you to the doctor, we'll watch meet the robinsons. it'll be fine." and i really meant it. and i felt good about it. i liked the feeling good part the most.

i love that i called the school and they said 48 complete hours. i said "so, she can't come back until 10 am wednesday morning?" i thought they'd go "oh well what's an hour." no, the lady said "yes, that's right. 10 am." seriously. she has to miss an hour of school wednesday because i didn't get back from the pharmacy until 9:45? okay, whatever. that's not the slightest bit silly (yes it is). particularly because my doctor (SHE IS THE MOST AMAZINIG DOCTOR IN THE WORLD) said it's really no big deal. yes, contagious, but it's not like you transmit it by looking at people. nice. but i'm amused by it, so it has a purpose.

so we had a nice day together. little boy was at his childminder's. this enabled us to get her a new pair of shoes before her current ones, which are so new i think i may still actually have the receipt, become threadbare. what do these people do to their shoes?

no, i mean, gosh how i'd prefer that the shoes would last longer.

we walked through the town to the shoe shop, and oops! there's a starbucks. i'm sure we won't infect anyone by sitting here sipping an iced chai.

the secret to health bit on The Secret cds is pretty stuck in my brain. i have been completely healthy ever since first listening to the cds. now, before you sarcastically say "wow, genius! you haven't been sick for an entire month?! quick! call the authorities! it's a miracle!" but then i'd say "hang on now, i'm surrounded by people who are dropping like flies!" i don't know anyone who hasn't been sick lately! but i'm not focusing on them, and i'm feeling very good. besides, it's october, and i abide by the holly shall only have good things in october law. it's not very well known, but it is a good one. so only those people in starbucks who are attracting unwellness* will be unwell. i'm positive of that. plus, no one was within 5 feet of her. (*yes, i know that's not a word, spellchecker; i'm using it anyway).

and to make sure it continues - i'm logging off for some well-deserved beauty sleep.

oh yes - and a great big THANK YOU to big U for giving me the 2.5 pound loss (yes, i'm still enjoying losing weight.). that was rock solid. i'm becoming thin!!! i'm going to hit my birthday goal of being in the 150s. yay!!!

healthy sarcasm alert:
oh yes, i did laugh at the part on The Secret where Rhonda says she grew to a huge 140+ pounds. oh good lord. you didn't! however did you get through the doors? you must have been turned down by all the very best clothing retailers. did you have a special car made for that? was there any special equipment you needed? LOL!!!

with that kind of talk, i'm just asking for a thumping, aren't i? no, i intend that if she were ever to read those words, she would see the humour of it. she SAID laughter was the best medicine on the cds!!!! see the humour of the fact that i don't personally know anyone who is as thin as she was 'fat'...

okay. i'm thin now. must - stop - making - fun - of - thin - people. it's all good fun. if i were really making fun of thin people, i couldn't attract thinness, which is what i'm certainly doing. woo hoo!

but before i actually log off (yes, i promise, i'm going now, really!) i think i should point out that what i think i am attracting lately are fantastic days. they seem fantastic to me because they are filled with joyful moments. i really loved the fact that this could have been any other work day. but even though m1 had a little eye-issue, we still had a fantastic day together. i'm going to remember this day. i probably wouldn't have remembered the day of coding i would have done otherwise.

my next task is to attract the perfect children's book agent. (oh god this woman's writing a children's book?) yes, it's true x 3. i will be on the shelves. i'm soooo attracting that. it's so real i want to rush down to borders and buy my book! except that i would probably get a free one. . .