dinner, and the importance of clarity

two interesting things were brought to my attention today. the first is that i have been thinking for quite some time that the reason i haven't catapulted into complete abundance yet is that i have not made the best of my relationship. i'm making changes. instead of seeing him as the grumpy guy who shouts and swears of a day, i am starting to keep him in my mind's eye as the fun guy he used to be. you know, before we had children waking us up at the crack of oh-my-god-it's-early? i'm "pretending" he's happy to see me when i get home and "pretending" he's not going to be annoyed by the stuff we (the kids and i) do. well, i have been noticing that he is much less grumpy than he used to be. wow. was i attracting that behaviour from him? i'm going to stop attracting that.

today i was walking up with my friend Mei who asked "did he cook you that dinner in the end?" i asked her what she was referring to, a little confused. "he said he was going to cook you dinner the other night." my husband? the guy who thinks cooking is opening a tin of beans? he had brought some veggies home and pointed to them when i walked in the room, sure, but -oh wait- i got a phone call on wednesday. "what time will you be home, i've put some dinner on." i now remember because my coworkers had to get the heart-resuscitator out of the cabinet. the shock to the system must be what made me forget it so quickly. i had gotten home that night and he had put some veggies in the grill, and a stuffed chicken in the oven. that had been pretty cool, and would have been much cooler if the chicken hadn't been stuffed. i'm on weight watchers, and stick to it very strictly, until sometime in the near future when i absolutely believe i can eat whatever i want and maintain my perfect weight. (i do believe i can maintain my weight once i get there!) i'm having a really fun time losing the weight and am enjoying the experience, so i'm sticking with it. but this was pretty sweet! i made sure i thanked him for going to the work and i did happily eat the veggies.

the flow of money has started to spread. i took a bunch of stuff that i no longer need in my life and set them up on ebay items with the intent that they would get sold. two of my ebay items which were least likely to sell were the first to go. woo hoo! thanks universe! you totally rock!

but another "be more clear" moment occurred yesterday when i received some 'green paper'. i am wanting more money to flow in, you know, more of the green stuff! and the importance of being clear was hammered home when i arrived at work to find a huge pile of green vouchers-for-computers-for-schools was sitting on my desk. that's not what i had in mind, but thanks!!! what a sense of humour the universe has. but it shouldn't quit its day job.

tomorrow, universe, i would very much like to have some papers that can be negotiated for goods and services. yes that would be nice.