lack of sleep catches up with me

yeah, i really should set a limit. i have been working on so many of these new ideas and exercises so much lately that i have not been getting to sleep until 1am. (and again, here i am, still typing). my usual lights-out is 12am latest. i'm a working a mother. i get home, i cook the dinner, tend to the children, shuffle them to bed, do a few chores, then write in the blog, then do one of the charles haanel weekly exercises. i only started a couple of weeks ago, so i'm still just going onto the third week. yes, they're nice, but i have had the feeling i should really just go to sleep. but if i don't, then i won't progress! must progress! no, must chill out.

and the balance is tipping a bit, i noticed today. there was a little loss-of-patience at the five-hundredth time a certain two year old turned the oven on when i prefer he had left the thing alone. i keep telling him that i prefer him not to do that. he doesn't seem to understand that i'm trying to attract good behaviour from him.

so i think i'm going to set the intention for this week that i get all my beauty sleep. i know, i'm as beautiful as i think i am. but i only think as well as i sleep. i could change my beliefs and intend that i only need 6 hours of sleep, but i LOVE sleep; that belief pattern just will not work for me. i won't allow it.

but the good news is that my level of annoyance at ovens being turned on and toys being thrown across rooms and tantrums being thrown is much lower than before. this is a tracking-progress blog for me, and i can truthfully say that i feel like things are much more positive, even in the not-as-positive moments. as Abraham says, "the good is gooder."

additionally, i wrote another book tonight. ever since i had the intention to create some ideas for children's books, the ideas have been flowing like water. it is totally amazing, and it is the most fun i've had in quite some time, and i am a person who has fun with very little effort. but clearly, if one is going to have the intention that ideas are going to come, one should also have the courtesy to oneself to have the time to implement the ideas. that's what i now intend.

and exactly right now i intend to get some sleep.