how do you spell relief

i listened to "The Astonishing Power of Emotions" cd again today. i felt it sink deeper into my brain, and carried the message further into the day. i really felt relaxed mostly. one of the main messages of the cd is

let go

i have been trying all month to focus on abundance, particularly in the face of a certain bill that i'm not going to draw more energy to, and a certain balance that i won't draw more energy to. yesterday i was trying to interpret the data differently.

but that was the problem.

i was trying. as the cd says, trying is upstream.

today, i let go, and felt the relief of not paddling.

for starters, the relief feels really good. really really good.

but also, with the relief comes more amazing things. like things at work that make sense all of a sudden.

AND

second opinions from different weight watcher people. no, crazy monday night person, i did not run in a 10k and then put on 2.5 pounds. it just did not happen that way. this was verified by lovely tuesday night person. woo hoo!

AND

fairly large amounts of money coming into my experience. we got a very large cheque today (THANK YOU! WOO HOO!), which wipes out the need for me to try any interpreting or visualizing or anything. only relaxed visualizations from now on! i'm not even going to try! i'm just going to relax into my happiness.

i also got a little birthday money (MORE THANKS AND MORE WOO HOO!!!) today.

it's TRUE ms. langmeier, money comes easily and frequently!

and all i had to do was let go!

i also had a realization tonight. i walked up to the shop around the corner. with the kiddos. it was raining a bit, and we didn't care. i didn't make a big issue out of them going to catch colds. i never really believed that getting wet would make you catch a cold, otherwise bath days would be tricky, and swimming wouldn't be as fun. what was fun was walking there in the rain with my kiddies. whenever m2 would stomp a puddle, i'd say "stop that!" in a mock voice that would make them both giggle. it was the most fun a walk to the shop could be. the realization is that instead of wishing my life away to finding myself at the gates of abundance, i should be enjoying the absolute h£ll out of these moments. THEY feel really good. they are why i had children, what i wanted out of life. well half : truth be told i wanted to be rich and have kids. halfway there!

i am halfway there.

OHHHH yes, there should be a funny bit. my posts have been not-as-funny recently, and although the point *isn't* to be funny, i just like it better when we're all entertained. SO, how about a combination of amazing and funny?

i meant to call mom (hi mom) because i am bored bored BORED of her not getting my emails, so i set a web-based one up for her. dialled the number. strangely, my husband answers. husband! what are you doing at my mother's house?! oh, wait, that was *my* number. hi husband!

"sorry, i dialled the wrong number."

"no, you didn't."

"okay, i didn't. hi! how are you?"

"fine. do you want the good news or the bad news?"

okay, my reaction to this is key. LOA responds to your vibrational response to things. so i think "well, i can calm myself to prepare, and receive the bad news and get it out of the way. but wait. i'm the kind of person that likes good news first now. let's go for that. but wait. if i get the good news first, then i only have bad news left. but wait. the bad news won't matter because i'm going to respond appropriately. oh criminently, just get the news!"

"give me the good news."

"i'm going to give you the bad news first."

okay. then the amazing. i prepare to NOT react to whatever it is he is going to say. it just will be what it will be.

"i bought a lottery ticket today and did not win."

"that's the bad news?"

"yes. the good news is we got a large cheque in the post."

how utterly fantastic is that. my husband, who has been starring in my gratitude journal (thanks v!), has given me fantastic bad news and fantastic good news. i had thought that maybe i should tell him exactly what constitutes bad news, but then i realized he gave me a completely wonderful gift. he gave me perspective. the next time ANYONE says they have bad news for me, i'm going to picture my husband with a losing lottery ticket. that is fantastic. because it is not bad at all. it's fantastically moot. that's how i'd like all my bad news to be in future - inane. YAY for mediocrity! woo hoo for insignificance! i love you!

i LOVE letting go!